He lead me...

You don’t know what the best is for you. But bear in mind that, He creates this road for you; He knows the best for you. So, put all your trust in Him, believe in His plan. And He may lead you along the road.

Alhamdulillah… Before ni pening kepala dok fikir nak sambung study ke tak. Kalau ikut hati, nak kerja dulu, bagi ibu ayah rasa my 1st gaji. Then, nak settle kan hutang PTPTN yang menggunung tu baru sambung belajar. (Ouh serius menyesal apply PT..kalau tahu dulu baik apply YPJ ke…tuh lah padah jenis main terjah tak nak tanya pendapat masyarakat keliling…*dush*). Awal nya memang itulah perancangannya. Tapi dari zaman praktikal itu hari, sampai la ni, bila orang tanya after grad nak buat apa and I said “Nak kerja dulu”, mesti kena bangkang habis L. Ibu ngan ayah memang awal-awal dah suruh sambung master since saya muda lagi katanya. Muda ke? Ceh.. Bos praktikal pun sama, maybe sebab dia pun after grad direct sambung master. Tapi bos bijak, pandai, cerdik, cergas, pintar, rajin…mana boleh sama kan dengan kita..dua dunia kita berbeza apa ^_^. Kakak tempat praktikal pun cakap macam tu. Pakcik-Makcik pun suggest yang sama. Pakcik teksi yang nak hantar pergi bus stand itu hari pun bilang yang sama. Boleh dikatakan setiap yang tanya “Lepas grad nak kerja dulu ke sambung study” and bila jawab “Kerja” mesti diorang oppose lah *tskk*. Eh, why everyone against my decision nih. Dah pakat ke macam mana? Aishhhh… Tapi bila fikir balik, nampak tak betapa cantiknya aturan Allah. Mungkin ini cara Dia memberi petunjuk kepada hambaNya yang dalam dilema, melalui perantaraan mereka-mereka yang oppose decision tu.

Yes I believe it to be that way.

Sebenarnya, itu hari my supervisor for FYP ada Tanya “Awak nak sambung master tak”. Mestilah mahu encik, tinggal lagi tak tahu bila mahu sambung. And what? He needs my answer ASAP, for him to apply for “Geran”. Actually, I’m not very sure about this “Geran” (GRA) thingy. Frankly speaking, I don’t know the flow to apply for 2nd degree too. Blur blur lagi pasal ini benda. Quite new kan. So, bila dah kena urge macam tuh, mulalah gelabah Tanya situ sini macam mana, minta pendapat ibu ayah, camno?? And I’ve said to my parents once, I will continue my study, if and only if I got scholar or apa-apa lah (bukan pinjaman gak..sape mau bayar PT gua woo). Asalkan, sambung study tak guna duit parents. Bukan apa, study guna duit parents nih, buat rasa malas nak study tuh timbul Yeklah, PaMa taja bukan effort sendiri, so tak rasa lah perit jerih cari duit tuh kan. Just my opinion. And I’ve said this to my SV too (tapi rasanya dia macam salah faham je ngan apa yang diterangkan). Takpe lah..the point is, I’ve got the solution for all these probs.

How??

After all those mushy thingy that mess up my mind, early this week, someone had posted on FB about  Jemputan Menghadiri. " POSTGRADUATE OPPORTUNITIES" - TAKLIMAT PELUANG PENAJAAN MY BRAIN15 (MYPHD DAN MYMASTER). Macam orang lapar, disuapkan lamb chop! Serius berbunga-bunga hati kita *wink*. Well I know, this is His answer for my doa. He left the door open for me. Thanks Allah for your kindness and mercy. And now, I can proudly say that I know the flow! Yabedabedududu!!! Basically, taklimat nih bagi pendedahan tentang master and PhD; how to apply, yuran, tempoh study available, mode of study, and the best part of course lah bab penajaan. Sebenarnya, banyak cara tajaan and GRA yang dimention kan oleh Inche SV dulu tuh pun one of the way untuk dapat money money money… Taklimat nih dibuat pagi tadi. And before pergi taklimat nih, macam-macam yang berlaku yang buat saya hampir tak dapat join taklimat ni. Dalam hati dah redha je, If this is the best for me, may He leads me to it. Alhamdulillah, everything going smooth. Even terlambat sikit, tapi banyak juga input yang dikongsi. 

# I pray that everything will keep going smooth from now till I grab the Second Degree holder title. Amin. Insyaallah…